awesome song <3

anyways, woke up early in the morning and headed down to je library.
bumped into sammy, reuben, munwei, terence and some other rv-ians.
so chem pou is more or less done. :)

stayed till 3pm, then went back home. my bag was freaking heavy. should really get a lighter laptop soon :/
so val and i managed to persuade reuben to go to bugis instead of clementi to buy koi.
its so easy to persuade him. you just have to say: do you want to be outcasted a thousand times and he'll give in LOL.

slept all the way home.

and i've to go to sch tomorrow to do physics pou. wah, sian ttm. early in the morning too. D:
then liting's gonna pierce her eyes.
zomg, how do people bear to pierce a hole in their skin?
ouch :/

then going out to watch big mamas. :D

gonna eat my mango then go for tuition soon. i need a chat buddy D:

i thought i had a chance, but i see you're already moving on

Nothing to do at the moment. :) its been a long time doing notes like this ;)
(p/s: i ripped this of someone else's blog)
My Personality:


I’m loud
I’m obnoxious
I’m sarcastic
I’m cocky
I cry easily
I have a bad temper
For the most part, I don’t like people
I’m easy to get along with
I have more enemies than friends
I’ve smoked
I’ve smoked weed
I drink coffee
I clean my room daily


My Appearance:


I wear makeup 
I wear a piece of jewelery at all times
I wear contacts (for eyesight)
I wear contacts (for colour not eyesight)
I wear contacts (for eyesight and colour)
I wear glasses
I have/had braces
I change my hair color often
I straighten my hair often
I have piercings
I have small feet


Relationships:


I’m in a relationship now
I’m single
I’m crushing
I’m in love
I’m always scared of being hurt
An ex has physically abused me, at least once
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
I’ve been in love more than two times
I believe in love at first sight
Friendships:
I have a best friend
I have at least ten friends
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend
I can trust at least five people with my life

Experiences:


I’ve been on a plane
I’ve been on a train
Someone close to me has died
I’ve taken a taxi
I’ve taken a city bus
I’ve taken a school bus
I’ve gone bungee jumping
I’ve made a speech
I’ve won an award
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight
I’ve been in a physical fight
Music:


I listen to R&B
I listen to country
I listen to pop
I listen to techno
I listen to rock
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it
I hate the radio
I buy CDs
Television:


I spend at least six hours a day watching TV
I watch soap operas daily
I’m in love with Days of Our Lives
I’ve seen and liked The OC
I’ve seen and liked/loved One Tree Hill
I’ve seen and liked Americas Next Top Model
I’ve seen and liked Popular
I’ve seen and liked 24
I’ve seen and liked CSI
I’ve seen and liked Everwood
Family Life:


I get along with both of my parents
I have at least one brother
I have at least one sister
I have at least one step brother/sister
I have at least one half brother/sister
I’ve been kicked out of my house
I’ve ran away from home
I’ve made my parents cry
I’ve lied to my parents
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded
I don’t live with my parents
Parents are screwed up and gone
Hair:


I’ve been brown
I’ve cut my hair in the past year
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year
I’ve been blonde
I’ve been red
I’ve been light brown
I’ve been medium brown
I’ve been blue/green
I’ve gotten my hair thinned
I use conditioner
I’ve used Silk Therapy
I’ve used hot oil treatments
I’ve curled my hair
I’ve straightened my hair
I’ve ironed my hair
I’ve braided my hair

School:


I’ve yelled at a teacher
I’ve been suspended
I’ve had an in-school suspension
I’ve walked out of class
I’ve skipped an entire day of school
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class
I’ve failed a test
I’ve cheated on a test
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test
I’ve failed Art
I’ve failed PE

I’ve failed Math
I’ve failed Science
A teacher has called my parents

hi all! just broke march camp.
and i really have a lot of reflections to make. D;
okay first about mynah.
mynah's always known to be the quiet and un-high patrol. for some weird reason.
anyways, through the camp i've really seen a lot of potential in the pl and ps.
and im really proud of the patrol identity. i see the the year2s and year1s putting in a lot of effort into the patrol identity. (hey and we added in a toothbrush, that gives us a bonus :P) overall mynah did awesome. :D

now for year threes.

HI EVERYBODY! okay i know that this is supposedly the most hiong camp for us cos its the chance where the seniors start noticing us and the time for us to really bond as a whole level (like duh, we already are :P) okay so, i think that all the pl-s did a really awesome job decorating the patrol identity and flag. really, really nice to me. :D and how all of us stayed back after school, disregarding the fact that there's a test tomorrow or whatsoever, to practice dance. and when we dance together on stage, we dont care about our image at all. :P if one gets embarrassed, all of us gets embarrassed as well. candlelite night was the only chance we could really sit back and enjoy ourselves, and we really did. remember when Dj's got me faling in love again was played? everyone just danced in the middle of the hall like nobody else's business. thinking back, we acted like people on drugs! :D okay and here comes the touching part. as what corliss said, we're like 14 lucky girls out of the the whole year3 cohort to be in guides. and look at us now, i can definetely say that i can feel an extremely huge bondedness among each other. some of us can really find our best friends in guides. and i did. i talk about how the level is like to my parents every time i get home. and they keep saying that im talking too much about you guys like you're my life. but there's one thing they dont know. you guys made my life so much more meaningful, eventful and wonderful. okay, starting to get cheesy :/ but i know yall feel the same way too. we plan for canvas tent, dance, footdrill and many other things. and we go out for random outings that made all my stress just goes away. a lot of things happened to me this year and i got freaking sad and demoralised and shagged. but every tuesday and friday, i looked forward to all the acts, chatting after acts and even staying till 7plus to just lie down on the field and rant about everything. when people ask me to sing, i get shy. but in front of guides, im totally out to sing. people pay to hear me sing. and you get it free twice a week. or even more. :P how lucky you people are!
and to me, crying is always a sign of weakness. crying would be the last thing on my list everytime im down. but through this ug camp. i cried a lot. for some weird reason. im super touched by what we've done. trust me, the best friendships are forged during the hardest times. after countless of scoldings/torturing/punishments we've done, that sense of accomplishment everyone has, cannot be forgotten. it'll be our last ug camp next year and before we know it, we will be the ones handing over the company. let just live the one year more together to the fullest and show the juniors and seniors what we're capable of!! ending up with kaixin's funny suggestion: LETS MAKE A LEGACY IN GUIDES! <3

then as food ic.
okay i was food ic together with dilys and yiyan.
to sum up, i would say, we screwed up. :/
like seriously, we made so many mistakes.
1) we only bought 1 tin of milo. the tin has this info sheet saying that one tin can only cater to 46 people. and we thought it was okay to use the tin of milo powder for 2 meals. super careless. and ms foo had to help us buy another tin. paiseh ttm.
2) i dropped 3 packed lunch boxes. i already know that 4 lunch boxes is enough for me to carry. but i insisted to continue carrying 8 boxes cos i thought it'll be much faster. but no, i dropped three. and for that, i din eat my lunch cos i was awfully guilty about what i've done.
3) we bought pandan cakes and orange chiffon cakes for the company and left it in the guides room. then the next day, the seniors threw all 7 cakes away cos it has mould + ants on them. like omg, 14 bucks down the drain. and we have to buy oreos as supper for the company. and its not even filling! D: wasted money again.
4) we skipped punishments. like wth la! everyone's being scolded by the seniors, but we're at the canteen, preparing for meals. then everytime i see my patrol members' faces filled with sweat and mine as dry as ever, i felt immensely guilty. :/
5) we broke corliss' cooker lid. the glass shattered all something. but the thing is, its not even something that belongs to guides. she brought it from her own house just to help us to cook the food. and we broke it. i dont know how to pay back for our mistakes.

and as for the juniors

i believe all of you still remember what the we have told yall the second night. we made the seniors so disappointed that they cried. i know we feel guilty and we want to say sorry to them but all of us should know that the best way to say sorry to them is to show them that we can do things well, and make them proud. we made a deal with yall that we'll make the third day as good as possible, and leave ug camp with that sense of fulfillment in you. afterall, we're all stuck in guides for 4 years and its up to you to make the fullest out of it or dread it every week.
but anyways, good job for enduring ug camp. esp the year ones. believe me, everytime you're tired and want to just slack for a bit, remember that your whole level is doing the same thing you're doing and going through the same pain you're in. just endure as a level and you'll feel great and accomplished after that.

so, to end my reflections. i really wanna replay ug camp and ammend for all the mistakes i've made. in yr1 i thought that 3d2n is enough to make me die of torture. but now i felt that 3d2n pass so fast! i still remember how sherryl, dilys and i went to watch gnoromeo and juliet 2h before ug camp and now im at home, eating ice cream cake. really need more of such camps to really push us to our limits and bond us more. :D

I was never good to begin with

so to sum up this week, it sucks.
my gpa for term one is officially screwed.
shall not go into details. and i was so confident of proving myself to my parents.
now what? im just a liar.
a useless, stupid liar.

and this's not the worse, im shagged for this week. thought i could have a break on friday but no, there's elit test in the morning. and ug camp in the afternoon. oh dear lord safe me from this agony.
seriously.

yeah and i know i should be killing myself like now.

art is not my thing.
im so dead for violin.
din practise shit yesterday cos i was painting ug camp flag + clearing up the mess.
it felt so ugcamp-ish <3
anyways, i love our flag and patrol identity.
okay, i love every patrol's flag and identity.
and we've collected loads of cocnut husks for outdoor cooking.
it better not rain. :)
feeling super ready for UG camp :D
just that i have this blister under my feet. D:
hopes it disappears by tomorrow. :/

need to end this abruptly cos i have to rush for violin D:

violin used to be an enjoyable thing, now its such a burden :/

hi, so i've promised myself to sleep by 10 today.
but i've already had my afternoon nap.
so that makes the promise invalid. yeah :)

anyways, patrol identity is prettytytyty, at least to me cos we spammed a lot of painty markers. (Y)

getting restless when dancing hoot. cos:
1) dilys' sianness is affecting me D:
2) hates my pinafore which is stained with ink.

plus its 2.4 trial tomorrow.
D:
yeah i know im super cui cos pe is like torture in hell for me.

its 10.30 now. shall sleep early :)
nights!

Hi!! so today was cool cos there isnt any tests. phew, wasnt paying much attention to any of the lessons today.
anyways, did firelighting for cca.
i've concluded that it takes hell lots of luck to start a fire.
i remembered i only needed 1 matchstick to start the fire on my first firelighting session.
now i need 8. -.-
and blowing the fire's tough. the smoke keeps on getting into my eyes, that explains the puffyness of it.
makes my eyes smaller. D:
and i accidentally touched a stick which had hot white ashes on it.
zomg, i can feel my skin coming out already.
and for that my right index finger is paralysed.
must start being extra careful. :/

and im proud to say hoot is almost done.
staying back tmr after oracy to decorate patrol identity.
hopes that ug camp wont be screwed up :)
cross my fingers.

on the side note, im extremely disturbed at boys flirting so openly even when they already have girlfriends. what do you mean by saying "i've been wanting to sms you for so long and my wish is granted" to another girl while ignoring your girlfriend for days. what's this?! you should be appreciative that someone even likes you for goodness sake.